My Insecurities

My insecurity is something
I have trouble trying to fight
No matter how much I try 
I cant seem to get it right

This has turned into a struggle
To hold my head up high 
I keep my smile broadened
Even though inside I cry

There is nowhere to run away
From myself I want to hide
Only when I’m alone 
Do my insecurities subside

Worried about friends and family
No one I hate more than me
Things shouldnt have got this bad
So why can nobody see?

I want to be someone else
Anyone other than who I am
But nobody anywhere can see why 
They just don’t understand

These little insecurities 
Eating away inside my mind 
They wont ever leave me alone 
I want to leave them all behind

Like Pandora’s box
They manage to escape
Cause havoc, pain and distress
And leave me to contemplate

Why me? I wonder in my head
Over and over again
Yes I may overcome this
But things will never be the same

All I want is to make you proud
So I pretend that I’m not hurt

These insecurites making life hard
Making me wear this costume
Making me feel worthless
It’s my whole body they consume

A very short lesson in Psychology:

pilosopogyno:

• When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside
• When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely
• When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret
• When a person can’t cry, that person is weak
• When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension
• When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted
• When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you